Her suitcases packed and more than ready to go back to where she feels at home after a five week break my eldest daughter is being flown back to LA by her dad. It was most likely her last visit to the Netherlands staying in our house and it is definitely the last time to be able to sit up front with her father at the controls. All geared up to make the next move in the music business. It was good to have her home for a while and time to let go again.
So much is going on with everyone. Grownup kids coming and going, taking what they need including much of my time and attention but also my car and cash...When they're in their twenties the ease with which you handle it all is clearly diminishing. I can feel the energy out-pour versus in-take is out of whack. No one but me of course is to blame and it all has to do with the empty nest syndrome. I love having my kids around and thoroughly enjoy their stories but I can't seem to keep the balance in order. Taking time to be me, claiming my own space, wow, a challenge it is! Even though I will miss the rustle and bustle and taking care of everything I dare to say I long for some quiet time to gather my thoughts and make my own plans. A pause from worrying is a welcoming idea. So in preparation for the next waves I immerse myself in peaceful waters.
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